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2010-03-20T02:55:00.000+08:00

在此刻，我看着你的照片和以前的讯息。。
我哭了。。。

2009-06-30T21:17:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna officially make this site a place where i express my thoughts. be it good or bad, nasty or sweet, or simply just venting my anger.

you needn't have to go through all these if you feel uncomfortable. no one forced you to visit this site.. it's my personal thoughts, not related to anyone or anything. I can be right or wrong. This is clear.

I really don't understand why things turned out like this. Should this be even happening in the first place? I'm strangely puzzled..

Who wouldn't want things to be done immediately? I don mind playing guitar for one day and becoming Joe Satriani the next day. I really cant think of how message could spread like this..
I only meant that i couldnt do it immediately at that time. I had things going on. Yeah, i know it's my bad for not bringing down the paper. Sorry. But i really did what i could ASAP.

A few thoughts came across my mind.
What is true in the natural is also true in the spiritual.
In my opinion, i believe that there will be a time of 'stretching' and a time of releasing the 'tension'. You couldnt possibly workout your muscle till it tears can you? It had to have a period of rest. I'm not literally saying that we should slack and just let the workout be wasted..

And even if you workout your muscle till it tears, it cannot go any further! In case you dont know about it, it's called limit. That's where people cannot move on and need breakthrough. And breakthrough requires time. if it doesnt, it's not called breakthrough..

I seriously believe when people reach this stage and cant move on. It does not mean that they have gone cold, backslide, lost passion and etc. If that's the case, Isaiah 40:30 would not even be in the Bible. Rather, i think it's a process where everyone have to go through! Jesus went through it right? He was tempted the way we are in the wilderness. So are you saying that when He was in the wilderness He's actually slacking? Or are you saying that when He cant do many miracle in Nazereth He has actually backsliden?

I'm not pissed or angry or what.
Rather, it's just something that i wanna say out.

I feel better this way.. so why not?

2009-06-26T00:52:00.003+08:00

Feeling kinda burnt out with the things happening.
didnt really do well for my term test..

I'm really trying to make a balance.
but sometimes it really stretches and feel so damn lethargic.

But the funny thing was.. i didnt even felt like at all in the past..
although situations and problems kept coming in, i fought it out again and again.. without even feeling burnt out.
the good old times.. 4 years ago..

Dont get me wrong though.. i'm not trying to backslide or lose my faith.
like what pst Kong said, "It's all too late to lose my faith. Nothing can stop me. Cos' I already EXPERIENCE God!"

Maybe it was true that i once fought alongside with comrades who were willing to die for each other.
it's one thing to press on with companions who care, love, sacrifice and share the same dreams.
and it's another to just hang on with strangers

it's all about relationship.
not only 'hi-bye' category
but those deep heart to heart relationship.

OH YA! let's talk about one thing i hate! COMPARISON!
in my opinion, i feel that there are a few types of comparison.

1)People who compare themselves to others in a very irrelevant way
one stupid illustration i could think of is.. one zebra and hippo was walking and got obstructed by a river. Then hippo tells zebra, "don worry! let's swim over!" hope you understands =.=

2) People who compare someone to others
have you ever been compared to your siblings when you failed your exams during childhood? and how your mom would ask you to at least eat their shit so you could become a lil' bit more intelligent like them? yeah it's that kind. i seriously think that no one is the same. If not, why would God appoint apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, teachers?
(i'm referring to smth else.. not gruding abt my childhood sad memories.. =.=)

But nevertheless, i am very easily encouraged! hahaha
Those who hope/wait upon the Lord will have their strength renewed

as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...

to keep going on..
to keep going on.... and on...

anyway.. thanks bro....
i will always remember what you taught me....
you have left a legacy behind in my heart..

2009-06-21T01:38:00.012+08:00

2009-06-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

Square face went back to hk ystd.
really miss her.
really

Last friday marked the end of the morning prayer week. Honestly, it was very tiring to wake up so early in the morning.
BUT!
It was worthwhile! I sensed breakthrough in many areas of my life! God's presence was so strong! I was feeling goosebumps throughout the sessions. Definitely not out of cold.
Pst Tan also shared short message about prayers, which really challenged my thinking.

"For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay. "

How would you feel if you are doing something so hard and yet people don't sees and affirm it?
When i dont say anything, it doesnt mean that I dont care or i'm not doing anything. Sometimes, i just dont feel the need of saying everything out. The fruits will show, and action speaks louder than words.

"so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."

But i seriously believe in the power of building relationships.

2009-05-30T00:35:00.004+08:00

it was a long time since i last updated
Havent been doing well these days. Feeling down and out. Kinda struggling with school works and some following up stuffs.
But amazingly, God touches whenever i'm in the lowest pit.
Sometimes i just felt that i'm screwed up..
But God lifted me out!

Had a wonderful Song of Solomon BS today.
Main message was about relationship with God. Actually, the message shared today was rather similar to what bro Poh shared with us during iWorship101.
It just reminds us back to the first love all over again.

Song of Solomon 1:6

⁶ Do not look upon me, because I am dark,
Because the sun has tanned me.
My mother’s sons were angry with me;
They made me the keeper of the vineyards,
But my own vineyard I have not kept.

Isn't it true? things like schools; works; business or even serving and ministries, got ourselves tied up and we forgot all about the communion with God?

First Love
What exactly is that? Bro Poh told us that he defined it as special moments in our lifes. E.g,

Salvation - The first time i felt the presence of the Lord. I was shaking during worship. Where i first raised my hand in tears and conviction and walked down the aisle full of faith.
and fire came down from heaven and touched me. and i was filled with passion to spread the good news to others.

Water Baptism(not yet for me, soon ya?)

Speaking in tongues - The first time when pastor laid his hands on me. and i started speaking in languages that i've never heard before. when i was told not to be distracted by what my neighbours and i started to mumbled softly. on the way home, i would subsequently make a trip to the toilet, or find a quiet place and start mumbling to 'check' if it's still within me.

Ministry - The first time when i had guitar lesson and was shockingly early. where i took down tons of notes and memorize the open strings by heart through Every Body Gets Down And Eat.
Borrowed the old blue colored TGM guitar from church and tried to play something out of it even though i knew i couldn't. The first time i played for service(shc) and CG, where i could'nt bring myself to do anything else except to practice all day and make sure every note sounds heavenly.

It just brings me back again.

Lord,
I'll not fall. Not now.
Thank you for Your love and strength.

2009-04-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

woah woah woah!

Thank God for today!
finally managed to fulfill building fund!
although the last month is not cleared yet, but the amount is enough!

after all the months of sacrifices, i was thinking how would God bless me..
i mean.. apart from being obedient to give, of course i gave cos i know God will bless me too!
faith ma right?

i kept thinking and thinking till i limited God's ability..
and after some times, i came to conclusion that it's quite impossible to reap something significant..
i was surprise when i went to my parent's room, i asked her would my pocket money be the same?
she told me it will be increased!!
wahhaa!! praise the Lord!!!
for those who know, it's quite impossible to get a raise in my pocket money =.=

will reap abt 237% more than what i sowed

haha

war is finally over too! hahahaha

really wanna change to be a better person and testimony for God

2009-04-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

school is starting abt a week's time
gosh.. after 2 months of slacking
how to adapt to school life? =/

felt kinda weird..
i'll be an old uncle..
haish~
regretted wasting my school days.

damn.. i hate irresponsible people..
i thought things would end after tok move out..
PR not done
Passport's expiry

wth..

Easter is also round the corner
impt day man.
2 millennium ago that was the mark of mankind's salvation.
pray that my friends would come

2009-03-06T22:24:00.002+08:00

i have an inspiration today!
a movie!

The Asylum of Bunga Rumpai

it shall be a sci-fi fantasy
about war between apples, milk, deposit, chocolate, water
wah! it shall be a BOX OFFICE!!

2009-02-19T21:30:00.001+08:00

nth to say..
sorry victor..

went back to school to sign the attrition form
wah.. feel so wrong..

our SM's department are fulled with good peoples =D

2009-02-16T01:01:00.004+08:00

it's time to post again =D

went to the morning prayer meeting last week.
recharged and refreshed! it feels so good to start the day with prayer
although it's kinda early for me.. (--,)

alright, valentines is over
had some board gaming session with the cg peeps at settler's
and then went to dine with baby!
haha not bad la!
i find it quite romantic! i love the gifts!
thanks baby!

oh ya! forgot to tell you guys abt the valentines roses i made! together with 黛比 and angeline 大姐!
haha zai right?
i personally like it very much!
hope the new friends like it too =D

random questions...
anyone of you mind apparel loaning?

i mind.

2009-02-04T01:58:00.002+08:00

met up with zheng zhong the gui and qian hui the boss ystd
went to leisure park
ate KFC for dinner
wanted to ice-skate initially but...!!!
argh.. what a thing to happen..
they do not accept nets!
not just that, the whole plaza don accept nets as well + there isnt any DBS atm..
well, we decided to catch a movie instead
we managed to fork out just enough though!! hahaha!!
so we ended up watching All's Well End's Well
wahhaha super hilarious!
highly recommended!

after that, we took a long long stroll to the bus stop!
haha like 3 lost beggars

home sweet home after that! and gui took the wrong bus.. hahahaha

what an enjoyable day
we should meet up frequently ya?

2009-01-31T23:10:00.002+08:00

雨不停落下来
花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀

爱只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何 say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

心有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在

紧紧相依的心如何 say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

2009-01-25T02:10:00.003+08:00

had lunch with baby and sis
then headed for CNY service!
it was splendid!!
what a message by pst Kong!!
totally blew my mind away! you guys should listen!!!!
very very interesting message about chinese characters and history!
and you will realize that God has been revealing Himself to us since we were toddlers

a dozen of hours before CNY
wahahahahaha

恭喜发财！
红包拿来！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~

2009-01-14T02:12:00.006+08:00

Got back my results finally..
THANK GOD that i pass!

wanna spot the difference?

managed to spot it?
haha.. i'm now eligible for so much more courses than the previous time.
PRAISE THE LORD!

pray for me ya?
i wanna get into TP's Aviation Management and Services

was thinking abt millennia institute earlier on..
思考-ing
but if i'm able to get into AVM, i'll definitely choose it!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-11T23:18:00.003+08:00

hi peeps =D
what a dead blog T^T

went to watch gui's national boxing tournament yesterday
damn nice ah.
he fought really well! nice fight bro!
took 3 pictures with him together with boss.
and i ended up having the same pose..

watching the match really made me wanna join the club.
i like tournaments =D
but.. no no no after a serious consideration..
my nose!!!
argh.. T.T
my opponent don't have to punch me hard,
a flick on my nose can break the drainage system within..

went service today
it was GREAT!
the message from Pst John Bevere was simply mind-blowing.
it changes my perceptions! and took me to a whole new level!
one word; HONOR!

went back home after fellowship-ing with the cg!
haha i love spending time with them! =DDD
caught Titanic on HBO!! O.O
omg.. touching sia..
not only the romance la.. but how desperate the people are trying to stay alive..
watching the movie made me fell in love with celine dion's My heart will go on!
i feel that a movie's theme song can really bring out the emotions..
another theme song i like is Lord of The Rings's
that song is simply swee la..

i will be getting back my maths o level result tomorrow..
indescribable feeling..
i'll leave the rest to God, since i've DONE MY BEST!!!

2009-01-01T17:01:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL EARTHLINGS AND ALIENS!!

2008 was over in the blink of an eye~ winks*
all pumped up for 2009

changed my ringtone to a uber cute starwars theme..
randomness =.=
then baby bought me an iAngel for my phone!
damn cute man!! the funny part was mom actually thought i cut it out myself!
HAHAHAHAHAHAhahaha.... =.=

not really funny though..

then ystd i was debating with jasmine to see whether is the iAngel or iDevil cuter..
so comical isnt it?

and so after that we went counting down with the other guys at nicoll highway!
it was so crowded...
we played uno and after that the firework start
wah! it was the 1st time i witness a firework so close!
the scene was spectacular!

2008-12-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

2008-12-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

没有宝贝的第11天

shiok! holidays are round the corner.
today is the last day of school.
seriously needed a temporary job to pass time
but no lobang =S

a few days ago dad bought me a Levi's jeans
haha the unbutton 501 series
really nice

i miss you baby
really wanna hug you real soon =D

2008-12-04T21:54:00.002+08:00

我承认我也有点情绪
该好好谈却让你离去
改天买点什么哄你
你就不会生气

一个星期都没你消息
十七个留言都没回应
感觉有一点不对劲让我开始担心

我说了什么我做了什么
还是问题不在谁认错
错在那不该做的却一直做
该说的没有说

我说了什么我做了什么
你我还要骗自己多久
如果装若无其事重头来过
让我们比较好过是对还是错

Hey ooh ooh 有什么出错

足够的技巧不去争执
足够的成熟但没情趣
会是爱得不够多
还是根本爱错

分手这念头你有闪过
老实说我也想过很多
难得但讽刺的默契
想想会更难过

我说了什么我做了什么
还是问题不在谁认错
错在那不该做的却一直做
该说的没有说

我说了什么我做了什么
你我还要骗自己多久
如果装若无其事重头来过
让我们比较好过
是对还是错

怪你不如我先想清楚
慢慢了解爱不是在比谁痛
多用心都没有用怪缘分不够

2008-12-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

没有宝贝吸的第四天

i miss you baby
keep wanting to sms you.. but always hesitating
dont worry too much ok?
God is our provider. we shall be the head and not the tail!

went to peninsula to take Johnson's hoodies
gangster man.. G-UNIT hoodies!
i got myself 2 top at a 50% discount for the 2nd one
haha! what a bargain!

i counted my pledge amt and THANK GOD!
i managed to fulfill the amt for the month of september!
PRAISE THE LORD!!
no wonder Nehemiah said the joy of the Lord is our strength

i really miss you baby
=S
cheers

2008-11-30T21:39:00.002+08:00

没有宝贝吸的第二天

it has been two days since baby went back
and seriously, i miss her.
people say you'll only learn to cherish when things are gone
fairly true

nothing to depress abt though, it's not a trip back for good=D

service was awesome today!
Baby's fav pst Tan preached the word
all about remembering God for what He has done in our lives

Deuteronomy 4:9
9 Only take heed to yourself, and diligently keep yourself, lest you forget the things your eyes have seen, and lest they depart from your heart all the days of your life. And teach them to your children and your grandchildren

pst Tan said something that challenged me
"walk the walk not talk the talk"
i think it really applies to my life.

went steamboating with cg members after service
and seriously, i was disappointed by the food!
UTTER DISAPPOINTMENT
not the first time though...
totally not worth it for 22 bucks
i rather spend a few cents more and go seoul garden or sakura
which has more variety
and defenitely quality

oh anyway, the black stains on the utensils can be scrapped off using force
eh.... i'm not trying to be a miser..
but dont you think it shouldnt turn out this way?
right? right?

but nevertheless, had a wonderful fellowship =D
hahahahahahahaha

CIAOS

2008-10-21T01:01:00.003+08:00

greetings earthlings

it seemed that i had a long voyage to mars and back..
so long since i last updated..

Angeline's wedding was superb
everyone was dashing
the food was delicious!
what a blissful couple

lazy to upload the photos
which is avaible via various blogs

o level is stressing me out
regretted not making effort to learn maths..

thoughts have been flashing through my mind..
am i able to make commitment? in any areas of my life

guessed i'm that optimistic and simple minded
just bad tempered..

2008-09-20T04:33:00.003+08:00

4.30am...
The time where you wonder if the neighbours you see are already awake
or not yet asleep just like u are

2008-09-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

we're two worlds apart yet we can be together

i'm amazed

2008-08-21T23:59:00.004+08:00

According to all known laws of aviation,

there is no way that a bee should be able to fly.

Its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground.

The bee, of course, flies anyway.

Because bees don't care what humans think is impossible.

2008-08-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

Good old times

Good old friend

2008-08-16T00:47:00.004+08:00

woo.. what a long time since i last posted..
haha.. lazy lazy..
no choice.. this was the last week for our presentation
thank God our group made it for the ISS presentation and roleplay

just came back from church.
had a prayer meeting for the "60 seconds of fame" event
it's always good to talk to God =D
it was a powerful night though i had to take the train from Pasir Ris to Boon Lay
no big deal =D
haha

Watched Money No Enough 2 with family few days ago
a nice show! worth watching despite the critics from the media
of course there'll be an opposition from the media, since most of the part are "shooting" the govt.
it brings out the everyday life Singaporeans face.
kinda touching during some scene.
few things i've learnt:
it's really blessed to have such a wonderful family
the toughest and poorest times are those that you're alone

so i'm HAPPY and THANKFUL for such a family!
and of course DEAR!! =D

s
o
r
r
y

i need to hang on longer and stay on..
i really need to work on it =(

2008-07-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

Today is a gift, that is why it is called "The Present"

2008-07-24T23:41:00.002+08:00

Today, i'm gonna hold myself back from you

i know it's almost impossible..

but i'll fulfill it

2008-07-18T00:06:00.007+08:00

You might not need me
but I need you..
You might live without me
but I'd die without you..

I dont wanna walk this road alone..
it's ok if you dont wanna walk with me..
but..
just stay close..
and pretend you're walking pass..

世界如果被残酷攻击只要给我一个电话亭
把内裤当外衣如果你能够开心展开披风带你飞行

谁赐予我这一身无助的能力
神也不能阻挡你想离开的心

為什麼拯救地球是那麼容易
為什麼束手无策啊我和你的爱情
為什麼我能飞天也能够遁地
為什麼我却没办法长驱直入你的心

曾经你讚美我手臂逛街多能提日日夜夜贴身保护你
最凶狠的怪兽也不能与我為敌那為何害怕你的泪滴

我给了我这一幕难堪的结局
谁要这样超人连自己也救不起

為什麼拯救地球是那麼容易
為什麼束手无策啊我和你的爱情

為什麼拯救地球终於完美结局
為什麼我只能够眼看著爱燃烧成灰烬

世界如果被残酷攻击谁来接手我的超能力

2008-07-09T18:18:00.004+08:00

I can't go down this road without you..

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

2008-07-06T23:36:00.002+08:00

不要哭了嘛　该哭的人是我吧
妳都坦白爱上了他　我有什麼办法　
oh~ya 我也同意啦既然妳提出想法
我们不要拖拖啦啦　就从明天开始吧

那就这样吧　再爱到曲终人散啦
那就分手吧　再爱都无须挣扎
不要再问我　怎捨的拱手让他
妳走吧　到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧　在爱都要sayonara
再给抱一下　闻一闻妳的长髮
不要再哭啦　快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧　再爱我　有缘的话

快去把东西收拾一下　
再耗下去都天亮啦
这裡的钥匙妳先留著吧　
怕妳有东西假如妳有东西　忘了拿

2008-06-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

woohoo!
dear's finally back!
haha..
heaven celebrates.. =P

Thank God for the safe trip and the blessings!
she bought loads of things
a T-shirt for me, which i love very much!
a koala bear painting by herself! haha cute man..
a levi's bracelet? dunno wat's that.. haha

and most touching of all, she bought a music box just specially for me!
eh.. there's a specific word for it.. but i forgot., -.-
the song in it was ai hen jian dan!! our song!!
i almost cried man =(
(bloody hell, out of a sudden i cant type chinese.. why..?)

she bought a damn enormous eraser for jingshi
and i guess she can use it for a lifetime =.=..
serious.. not kidding..

lastly, she bought some chinese snacks for my family! haha
love her to shreds! haha

tonight had a wonderful prayer session with the cg =D
sitting down together to pray, esp with dear
is indeed a good experience as always!
a couple who prays is a couple who stays!
amen?! haha

aye guys
ciaos

2008-06-11T18:08:00.003+08:00

i'm worried
you said i'm blaming..

i'm jealous
you said i compare..

i miss you
and you dont care..

i've done so many things..
you said it's trash

why cant you just take note of the small things that are happening ard you?
it's always these small things that caused the problem..
show me some respect please?
i 'oi'ed you not because i'm disrespectful..
it's because i wanna seek your attention when you're not focusing..
not like how you call me with an 'oi'

but nevertheless.
i'm sorry..

What I gotta do to make you love me?
What I gotta do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I gotta do to make you want me?
What I gotta do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I gotta do to make you love me?
What I gotta do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?

sorry seems to be the hardest word

2008-05-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

i miss you.. =(

take care of yourself
will be keeping you in prayer

loves..

missing............................................................

2008-05-26T23:46:00.002+08:00

hey peeps..
havent been blogging for ages..
i almost forgot i own a blog..
poor lil thing..
zzz

hmmm nt much things recently..
but no doubt there'll be much things to do..
from studies to spiritual life..
from personal life to relationship
kambateh!!!!
hahahahhaha...
(==,)

had our sweet 1/2 yr anni
it's fun going to escape once in a decade..
and i emerge as 车神!
wahahahahah..

dear's going back on the 29th for 20 days..
and it's surely gonna be hell for me..
lots to say to you..
but you must take care!
safety 1st!
will be praying for you lots!
=D

love ya!

2008-05-02T21:30:00.002+08:00

I was a fool. I was a fool.
My regrets were too late too. I know that it can't be turned back.
I know that I can't see you too.
I was so wrong, I'm so sorry.
I didn't get to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry
I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.
Don't be like that, think about it.
Think about what it took us to get here
Think about it again, you're going to regret it.
I was so wrong, I'm really sorry
I didn't get a chance to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry
I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myeslf with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.
I can't live a moment without you.
I still cry even no matter how I drink or if I cut my hair.
I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.
Don't ruin yourself anymore...

2008-04-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

These few days have been rather down for me..
time is never enough..
i always feel that time is too little
and there's so much things to do..

nevertheless, i'm not blaming anything..
just hope that i can improve myself to keep up with the pace

just recovered from fatigueness
and have been feeling weird recently..
but no doubt that's nth to do with fatigue
totally different stories..

hmmm.. i think there's just too many things to worry on..
and i worried too much..
i feel that our time are so much limited..
there's too many things to cope with..
a feeling of being missed out.. left on the shelves
and some misunderstandings that not resolve..
it makes you pondering..

have been randomly watching hk serials with family..
wanted to learn cantonese
few reasons behind it.. but.. yeah.. don wish to think too much..
will be trying my best! ka yaow!
watching the hk drama makes me think again
it makes me think about your life back there

since i got back from hk.
i always remind myself of you when i thought of hk
i suddenly find myself being able to understand you so much
the life that you used to have..
the places that you used to go..
the culture of speaking cantonese..
the warmth of your family..
it's a weird feeling..
it cant be described..

i'm wondering..
what if you didnt have to come to sg
how would your life be?
are we gonna be strangers?
are your life gonna be like those drama?

you came here as an alien
without anything by your side
empty handed you come, empty handed you'll go
what more can i expect..
i had everything here
no doubt your prospective are different..

be it fated or sheer luck,
i'll cherish you..
i love you dear <3

2008-04-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

omg..
my whole body aches like hell!!
that damn basketball training is so damn tough..
for so many months i've not used my body
and now they give this commando style training!!
i'm old already..

dear, i'm so worried about you..
you gotta hang on
life is like that
full of struggles..
i'm here with you..
don give up!
don give yourself so much pressure
walk at your own pace
even little things that you do, it's turn big overtime!
trust me!

2008-04-17T22:05:00.005+08:00

wow.. after long period of laziness
you guys miss me?
lol.. not much ppl know my url anyway..
just being lame =(

hahaha..
it's exciting to see your blog reaching 1000th viewer soon =)

school has started!
it wasnt so bad as i thought..
but living under the reputation of ITE was really sulky..
you will try to avoid the uniforms when you're outside..
but thank God sports management has nice and not-obvious uniform
i didnt know BSM is such a high class and well-recognised course!

gotta know some buddy
most of them are good!
can conclude that all sports ppl are all like this?
bunch of jokers
haha..
but out of the handful bunch of buddies
i got 2 closer ones

one is like a bridge that connects me to other friends, and one is a joker.. haha

we realised that our swedish lecturer has a funny accent..
Okai? lol..
he can say ok in every sentence!!
applaud please!!

today surprisingly our class played soccer together during lunch break!
imagine 47 people fighting for one ball
unity man!!
nv had such experience in my schooling life before

next few weeks gonna be hard..
our modules are not those slacking type..
in short, you have a unit like bio+FNN, english "paper 1" exclusive class, combined humanity, and OFA..

plus the maths hw remedial i get every week.. it's hell..
but gotta suck my thumb and move on!
i wanna excel!

i needa sacrifice my precious friday with dear.. as the tuition has been changed to friday..
haish.. really didnt want that.. but no choice..
for the sake our our future, i gotta work hard!!
it isnt forever anyway.. after o lvl then we'll own the hourglass

love you dear!

you're coughing more like ah ma each day..
better drink more water!
take care of yourself ok?
i'm always praying for you!
too bad i cant take care of you 24/7
please see a doctor soon!!

2008-04-10T00:37:00.003+08:00

have been worrying too much recently..
so many things just came across my mind..
but i think i ponder too much..
it's wrong to do that too..

am i really so sickening you must avoid?
does being with me make you so trouble?

sorry for the things i've done..
i just wanna love you

but looks like i'm better off dead

爱你错了吗　為什麼会受到这麼多惩罚
他们说的话像针往心裡扎
我心中的怕　不知该怎麼做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

带我远走高飞　不去理会　这一个蜚短流长的世界佈满虚偽
是你让我选择沉醉　繁星守候月不能睡　只因為爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞　一起去追　有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累　只想在你怀抱入睡　不在乎别人眼中是非

重新再出发　能不能让这天地不再吵杂
我的心裡面安静得不像话
故事的真假　没有多餘的力气去分辨他
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

带我远走高飞　不去理会　这一个蜚短流长的世界佈满虚偽
是你让我选择沉醉　繁星守候月不能睡　只因為爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞　一起去追　有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累　只想在你怀抱入睡　不在乎别人眼中是非

2008-04-06T00:36:00.002+08:00

nth special these few days
was forced to update..
lol..

my regrets were enlightened as my w910i turned to N95!
teehee..
it rocks man

off my parents go to mersing
fishing trips with friends and family
i took a long time to decline the offer..
haha
but next time i'll keep them company!
pray that we'll have seafood for weeks
rmbed the previous trip,
my virginity on the steering wheel =D
60/kmh..

today dear came to keep me accompany
the three of us looked like abandoned orphans..
haha..
today i woke up with dear right in my face!
so blessed.. haha
indescribable feelings..
felt warmth =D
it's like we're married
hahahaha!
i'm so fortunte to have you with me =D

幸福之中！

2008-04-01T23:39:00.005+08:00

these few days have been sweet for me
ever since sunday service
i'll tell you why

James 1:5-8
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

this verse speaks a lot to us about having faith. And we know that God will not give us when we're unsure.

Life is full of choice and decision
and we know that doesnt come easy

"To get where you wan to go in life, you must start where you are"

Decisiveness is the quality to bring change
however, the opposite of decisiveness is ambibavalence, which means uncertained or confused
(Jm 4:17, Ps 119:113)

Procrastination is another enemy. which means we have thoughts like, "it's ok to delay" or "lets do it next time" we procrastinate because of fear of change, overwhelmed or plain laziness.

(Ecc 11:4, Job 8:7)
there's a real story of a girl sitting on the toilet bowl for 2 years!
even her skin and leg started growing on the bowl and becoming a part of it!
when the police came and asked the boyfriend, he said,
"when i ask her when will she be coming out, she always said 'maybe tomorrow'."

so let us wait no more, not tomorrow, not next year
but choose to make a decision NOW!!
be it our:

Health
Ability
Relationship
Vision
Emotional life
Spiritual life
Thought life

it all comes down to our own DECISION, DEDICATION and DISCIPLINE

here's a more pratical 9 steps:

Activate your planner!
Break large task (how do you eat an elephant? bit by bit)
Create deadline
Deal with the mess
Encourage yourself
Face your fears (do the hardest task 1st)
Goals review
Hang on! dont give up!
Initiate now!!!

once there was a plan by 3 devil to stop the preaching of the gospel
the 1st devil suggested, "let's make the people think that there will be no hell! and let them play all they want!"
the 2nd devil suggested, "let's make the people think that there will be no heaven! so there's no need to share the gospel anymore!"
then the 3rd devil laughed,"you 2 are silly! just tell the people that there's no hurry! there's no need to share the gospel so soon"

yes. it's that simple, our own laziness and procrastination always lead us astray..

let us talk abt money =D
Money dont grow on trees, but it's like a tree

every cent you save will get you back more
no wonder Albert Einstein quoted," The eighth wonder of the world is compound interest"

have a test, would you take a million dollar or someone who teach you how to double your money each day for a month starting from 1cent?

for those who choose the second one, congrats!
you've earned yourself 10 million!
the message is, even though at the starting, things might be insignificant but as long as you keep doing it, you'll have results!
everything starts small!

having said that, making RIGHT decision is vital in our life
(judges chpt 13-16)
samson was a man of God and he was born in he was in Mahaneh Dan, between Zorah and Eshtaol.

Mahaneh Dan - a place of decision
Zorah - a hornet's sting, wasp nest
Eshtaol - seeking the face of God

he was given a decision to make, God or flesh.
let us be wise in making our decision
if you've read the text, you'll know that samson's life was hell
all because he made wrong decisions again and again
and the sad thing is, he was buried between Zorah and Eshtaol in the tomb of Manoah his father.
all back to the beginning again..

so that's why i'm gonna change now!
all the bad attitudes, pride, selfishness

let's work hard together dear!
let us excel in everything
let us excel in our studies
let us excel in our health
let us excel in our finaces
let us excel in our relationship with people
let us excel in our relationship with God
i know we can do it! right?
i love you!!

surprised to get a phone call by bro robbie
he called to cancel off church debts.
i handed everything as stated
hope there's nth else..
i don wanna have any affliation or connection anymore =)

2008-03-29T12:45:00.003+08:00

FUCK it..

didnt slept well last night..
and for now..

soggy eyes..
bloody headache..
damn running nose..
and fucking sleepy..

hate this kind of feeling..
nth seemed right..
felt so useless..

argh..
peeped into my wallet..
i wanna be PROSPEROUS!
i wanna save up!!
but dunno y..
no matter how much i earn or save,
money seemed to fly..
我跟钱的八字不合吧？

dammit..
the knock on my head i getting worst..
so painful..
it's not those norm bruise pain..
it hurts 2x
and with the "sour sour" feel..

2008-03-29T01:06:00.006+08:00

爱,很简单

忘了是怎么开始

也许就是对你一种感觉

忽然间发现自己

已深深爱上你真的很简单

爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔～

I LOVE YOU 无法不爱着你 BABY 说你也爱我

I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你

不可能更快乐只要能在一起做什么都可以

虽然世界变个不停用最真诚的心让爱变的简单

爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔～

I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里一直在爱你

I LOVE YOU（yes I do）永远都不放弃这爱的权利

如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No 请贴着我的心倾听

听我说着爱你（yes I do）我爱你

yes i love you dear

i just wanna stay with you forever

i promise i'll be there whenever you need me

pinch pinch! <3>

bleah =D

too bad i cant sing..
if not i'll solo this song during our wedding..
hahahaha..

2008-03-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

got a knock on my head
and dear got a sprain on her ankle =(

head pain, heart ache.. argh!!

went down to bishan juction 8 to pick dear up after her sports carnival
met up with a few of her friend
nice peeps =)
the lengendary KAWAIYAN wasnt on full attendance..
haha.. so i guess it's less sickening =P

stars are always so magnificent at dear's place
saw auntie and uncle on the way!
SHUN!!
thanks to our quick response we managed to getaway!

hexhex XD

dear you must be careful of your movement ok?
dont move around unneccessarily
and try not to flex the muscles around your ankle!
i'll pray for your divine healing! =D
it aches so much to see you biting under your teeth..
HUGS!
you gotta improve your chinese oral too!!
love ya!!

enjoy every moment helping out my mom since her assist. fell ill
it's really nice to work there
tiring though
but good pay! smiles :D

2008-03-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

ystd dear came to my house after service
had lotsa fun together =D

we went to the market with mom
and then had dinner with the rest of the family at boon tong kee

dear didnt took her phone
so we exchanged!! haha..
nokia is still triumph when it comes to sms

love you dear!!
hahahaha

she said my face was yuanyuan when i'm asleep.. =.=

2008-03-22T18:31:00.002+08:00

is it wrong to worry that your girl at will drown when the winds start howling?

is it wrong to be a prophet wanting every situation to be informed first hand?

is it wrong to expect a sms?

yes it's wrong..

my temper

my attitude

my disrespect

and most importantly, i care too much..

2008-03-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

dammit..
you bloody forget..
forget it..
are you so damn desperate?

2008-03-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

damn..

always fucking get maligned

bloody muthafucka..

2008-03-17T22:35:00.001+08:00

Why should I get involved in the church when I see so much hypocrisy and selfish behavior in people who attend?
Selfishness, hypocrisy, and other "people problems" in church can be discouraging. But selfishness and hypocrisy shouldn't drive us away from church involvement. Rather, it should make us aware of how much we all need it!
As children, we grow up in a world governed by adult authority figures who appear all-knowing, just, and wise. But as we approach adulthood, we learn how flawed and imperfect adult authority is. This awareness creates disillusionment, some of it painful. Disillusionment often turns into rebellion. As teenagers, most of us rebel to one degree or another against adults we perceive as arbitrary and unloving.
If we are fortunate enough to have loving parents, we are encouraged to "work through" our rebellion and anger. As we gradually mature into adulthood, we become aware of our own imperfections and conflicting ideals. This awareness of our own imperfection usually has the effect of humbling us, making us more realistic, and changing our rebellion into understanding and forgiveness.
Organizations, whether secular or religious, are made up of imperfect people. As adults we sometimes continue to expect perfection from organizations long after we have stopped expecting it from other individuals or ourselves. But just as teenagers grow into adults,Christians mature in their relationship with Christ. As we mature, we begin to discover how much we owe to God's grace and how little we earn through our own efforts. This makes it easier to see how God is able to use His church, which, like us, can serve as an instrument of divine grace in spite of imperfection and sin.
Sinful individuals or a sinful church can't produce lasting effects for the kingdom of God, but the power of God's Spirit working through them can! ( 2 Corinthians 4:7 ). As Jesus said, "Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance" ( Mark 2:15-17 ). If we were all perfect we wouldn't need the church. It is our imperfection that calls for the purifying process of membership in the body of Christ. Our mission is to love each other ( 1 Peter 4:8 ) in such a way that we gain the spiritual strength that can only be developed in union with other believers ( Ephesians 4:14-16 ).
We shouldn't overlook the hypocrisy and problems that exist in the church. We need to do what we can to confront and deal with them in loving ways. The apostle Paul was probably as aware of hypocrisy and imperfection within the church as anyone who ever lived, yet he wrote:
Bear one another's burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ. For if anyone thinks himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. But let each one examine his own work, and then he will have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another. For each one shall bear his own load (Galatians 6:2-5).
Dan Vander Lugt

2008-03-12T22:58:00.004+08:00

wah damn...

FUCKING pissed off

dammit..

i'm not a bloody damned slave..
i've got more important things to do..
and if you're not concerned abt my bloody damn future,
sorry
i fucking care..

and who do you think you are to swear?
bloody muthafucka
watch over your own damn foul offsprings before they rot

and today end up tuition cancelled..
better luck next time..

i'm pissed......
don provoke me these few days...

2008-03-06T16:54:00.002+08:00

i really dunno how should i face you..
things have indeed change..
a cut that is so deep to heal..
a feeling that is so complicated to understand..
a pain that is so hard to bear..
a future that is too glimpse to see..

the situation has radically turned sour and akward..
and i'm not the one who added the taste..

if moving on together isnt what you want,
then let's call it quit..

i'll throw in the towel

2008-03-06T14:23:00.003+08:00

had diner with family ystd
together with cuz and her family
to celebrate grandma's birthday =D

dine at bedok's coffee shop.. wasnt quite appetizing..
but nvm..
grandma's birthday ma =D

oh ya.. dad wore his tshirt invertedly.. haha
so funny..

these few days things have been happening again..
and i'm in a dilemma..

i wasnt being sensitive or angry or whatever,
it's just something that i expect..
yup, it's just an expectation..

but who doesnt know that expectation bound to fail sometimes..
and when it happens, you'll tend to be emotional..
and when emotion changes, it's not that you're being sensitive or angry or etc..
it just happens..
sorry anyway..

maybe i should be the one telling you that i'm ready..
cos when you're with me
i hurt you,
i make you cry,
i provoked you,
i dont live up to your expectation,
i break your heart..

are these process of happiness?
are these difficulties you have to overcome when you wanna build a home with someone?

i'll perservere..
i promise..

nevertheless,
i love you still..

面对自我矛盾难过
无助脆弱弥漫疑惑泪水滑落
我曾说过我想自由
成全只是你的借口我不愿懂
你离开以后我们的承诺
被丢弃角落灵魂被掏空
我承认是我没有用
为什么你坚持要走
我想自由不想放手
就算一切无法改变还是会承受
我想自由不想分手
你选择走放我的手
希望离开以后自由

2008-03-01T01:23:00.003+08:00

wah..
what a tiring day..
maybe i'm just too weak..
haha..
had a bad headache at the end of the day..
freaking pain..

went out with dear before coming to church today
haha.. it was so much fun as always!
i really love the time together!

ever since the day our hearts collided,
happiness have been following closely behind us
i'll cherish you with my life! =D
and as everyday goes by,
the more i realized that i cant go on without you...
ILOVEYOU

kinda confused about my tertiary education..
will be making deep consideration about whether to go ITE and retake o together
or simply just retake o..
it'll be a waste of gold and time if i go ite..
hmmmm..

damn... this cute lil blog of mine has been leaked..
'cause i left my url on someone's tagboard!!!
argh..! stupid me..
who cares anyway..
read all you(all) want and think what you(all) want..
my mouth
my thoughts
my happiness
my dilemma
my world
my life

not happy?

SCRAM~!

no choice.. i'm this practical..
because this is a pratical blog =D

2008-02-28T18:28:00.002+08:00

在一个恋情当中
一对情侣的目标
往往都是结婚
结果就像人们所说的
婚姻是爱情的墓碑

但我却有所不同
我要的不是跟你结婚
而是跟你一起建立一个完美的家庭
一个属于我们俩的家
一个充满孩子的吵闹声的地方
一个温暖，温馨的地方
一个幸福美满的家庭

忙碌的工作
回到家里能看到你的笑容
孩子匆匆的扑过来
多幸福
多开心

我爱你！！！

真的不能没有你！！

2008-02-28T17:08:00.002+08:00

these few days have not been right..
dunno why.. just don feel right..
but one thing that made me headache was..
quarrels after quarrels..

damn...

it's not getting us anywhere..
and i don understand why..

my temper+her attitude=hell

what to do?
i really don know..
all i wan is just to continue and move on..
and not harbouring into the past mistakes..
that's all..

why cant we just compromise on something that'll work out?
instead of condemning each other to our mistakes..

and i realized that dear is just so weak..
sickness after sickness..

please.. take care of yourself..
it aches to see you being like this everytime..

sorry... i love you..

2008-02-26T15:59:00.000+08:00

that's it...
it's over...

2008-02-26T01:51:00.002+08:00

听回忆呼吸
长达一世纪
脑海中都是你
冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影
让孤单教我演戏
幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候我们才相遇
也许我没搭上爱情的时光器
可是我永远不会忘记
爱你第一个原因就是你的安静
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆
我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后我心中有你

2008-02-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

=.=.. i'm finally back to blogging again..

i'm super lazy these days..

came back from hk a few days ago..
it was heavenly fun!
really missed it alot..
gotta know a lot of stuffs..
lazy to upload pictures..
wanna know more pls come and find me.. =D

these few days many things have been happening..
good vs bad.. and i'm sad to say that bad things triumph..
hmmm but still praise God ya?
being on the cross alone is enough for me to praise Him forever!
He still reign over the earth =D
have been rather into the Word lately..
CHC service is always so convicting!
GOD used us singaporeans(chc), who's the most afraid of losing face,
to preach abt cultural mandate, kristos kai cosmos
to engage the world and be impactful..
from there we will move to strength to strenght and glory to glory!
yes.. i'm from that chc's cultural mandate generation..
all the way!

these few days..
bad bad bad...
nth seemed right..
but i'm not gonna expect God to put me in this situation forever..
everyone seemed to have their own troubles...
own problems..
own understanding..
own situation..
own world
own life
own dilemma
own voice

where's mine? =D
who'll understand?
i don care.. i have God..
so wat if nobody cares?
God cares..
and when He cares,
why do i care abt ppls who don care?

Everything must change
There's a mirror showing me the ugly truth
These bones they ache with holy fire
but i've got nothing to give, just a life to live
if your world is without colour
i will carry you.. if you carry me

Every little thing's gonna be alright
Every little thing's gonna be alright

There's no one else to blame
I live my life between the fire and the flame
I've build my house where the ocean meets the land
It's time to live again, pull my dreams out of the sand
Let your world be full of colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing's gonna be alright
Every little thing's gonna be alright

When it's all falling down on you
You're crying out but you're breaking into two
When it's all crashing down on you
When there's nothing you can do
There is someone who will carry you

2008-02-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

bloody damn flu again..
i need the divine healing power of Christ!

it's damn itchy and bloody irritating..
i wanna go for an operation to cut off that 2 pieces of meat obstructing my nostrils..
but ppl say it'll grow back?

i was feeling so unwell in the morning..
my body was perspiring all over and yet it felt so cold..
thank God i'm fine now.. just cant close the floodgate of mucus from my nose..
it's disgusting i know.. that's y i'm using tissues as cork to shut the damn nostrils..

will be going to hk for 5 days from sat 16th..
kinda excited about it =D
looking forward to glance how dear's life used to be =D
it'll be fun!
have a whole day tour to disneyland and ocean park!
oh ya! let's pray that i'll see the koala bear somewhere..

2008-02-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

wow.. i guess CNY was a long break for me..
peaceful.. but totally ENJOYABLE!!!!!

i really enjoyed the times together with my families..
laughing and joking away..
one thing i like about my families is that,
we don only get to see each other on festive seasons
it's only the festive seasons that brings our joy to the climax!

on the eve,
we went to have reunion dinner at ah ma's hse(like any other ppl)
then we proceed to our aunt house to 跨年
haha it was pure enjoyment.

oh btw,
for anyone who doesnt know this,
it's our chinese tradtion where the longer we children stay awake on the eve,
the longer our parent get to live!
i'm kiasu and i slept at 4 =D

初一
nth much to talk about actually.. we visit our relatives hse to hse.
had couples of round of blackjack and daidee..

初二
woohoo~
today was special..
dear came down to my hse
(with the tough invitation from my mom, dad, aunt and of cuz me)
, along with all my families members!
it was exhilerating-ly entertaining! the atmosphere didnt turn out to be awkard,
but each and everyone of us still talk and joke ard!
it's never boring with my aunts crapping those damn bloody funny jokes..
and how they argue with each other..

初三
normally for our families, we stop the visitation on the 3rd day.. but because the 3rd lies on a saturday,
so it went on..
we visited our ah ma's hse again.. at 1st i was planning a date with dear after the visitation..
who knows? on the 2nd day after our hse visitation, ah ma called me to bring dear down along.. woot~ i was so shookingly astonished! so today dear came along and joined in the fun! we hang ard for awhile then leave for cine to find her cuz and fren..
(damn.. the church peepsnot friendsalways disrupt my fun family time with doubts and irritating phone calls)

guess wat? we went to eat 新旺香港茶餐厅
was rather awkard in the beginning..
it's hk style..
i think it's not much from the ambience..
but the ppl surrouding me..
her cuz and friends were so high as though as their overdozed with estacy..
they're scary man!
but they're bunch of funny ppl..
good friends too =D
these are some of the pictures we took

wat creativity they have! i was forced.. haha.. dear's bleah

haha.. ultra-man?

fighting to scoop bean curd

fighting to scoop beancurd pt 2.. i like this one!

swweeeet~ isnt it? hahs

i had no more pose to show =(

dear, jasmin, me

dear and i, together with alice and jasmin

after all the fun, went down to watch CJ7 with my family.
it was not much of a storyline.. but rather those film where you watch and laugh all the way..
i guess stephen chow's movies are all like that..
i'm impressed by the acting skills of the lil boy

初四
went to have sakura at safra with some of my aunt and cuz.
sakura nv disappoint my craving..
went out with dear at 4..
before that i tot of altering my jean at bedok.. but it was closed..
dear was so funny today,
we were looking at some cam..
then when she reach for it,
"klang"..
LOL!! there was a piece of glass she didnt see..
her reaction was super cute!

hahaha..
these few days i've realised that i'm indeed a very blessed boy..
with dear
and such peaceful and joyable familes.. =D
and now, it's completed.. everyone gotta know dear..
we're a family now =D
to me, that's more than enough..

God+dear+families=happiness for the rest of my life

goodbye

2008-02-05T01:18:00.001+08:00

last sunday i went to chc for service..
which i'm prepared to hear the message, get the annointing, and depart to a happier and a place that both dear and i can excel..
who knows? God told us to ENDURE..

on the way to chc, it feels so great for the both of us to be excited for God again..which we cant, in shc..
i was really excited abt the P&W session and the word..

i told dear something ironic.. the latecomers are already 3x our attendance..

this is how the word goes:
Pst tan quoted a verse from Hebrews 10:35-36..
it says how our endurance keep us through the times..

Fortitude - Strength of mind that enables a person to encounter danger or bear pain or adversity with courage.

Faith, Forgiveness is never complete without Fortitude(endurance)

2cor 6:4
2tim 3:10

our faith is something that God sees more precious than gold, the bible says..
if gold is something we walk on in heaven everyday.. wat more is our faith to God?
and how will God judge our faith?
it's by the faith to believe in Him during trials and tribulation..
here's wat the judgement is based on.. Romans 12:3, 1Peter 1:7

hope this diagram will help you.

Pst tan gave us an acronym that is very much easy for us to rmb.. ENDURE.
let us start with E

E - embrace God's purpose in your situation! (related verses: james 1:3-4, roman 5:3-4) knowing that patience make us a perfect person and how it develops our character, we must always know wat is the purpose of God allowing us to go through the trials. The only way to test of faith, is through trials.. when we are in trouble, we look straight into the purpose, and believe that God is bigger! gradually you'll find the problems smaller.. not vice versa!

N - nurture your spiritual roots! (related verses: luke 4:16, luke 8:15, romans 15:4)
our spiritual roots refers how much we knows about God.. and we can only know him more through His word.. good fruits will only grow if the seeds land on good soil.. which is same for our heart.. how much we know abt God is how deep His word is rooted in our heart.. always look to Jesus as an example.

D - direct your attention to Jesus Christ! (related verses: hebrews 12:2)
Jesus is the author of our faith. which means that how, why, what are we going through in tough times, He knows it all. why? simply becos He was also tempted just like anyone of us.. but never sin.. therefore He clearly knows how are we feeling, and will always have a way to lead us through.. and how did He breakthrough from temptation? is from the word of God as well.
Look at the world, you'll be distress.. look at yourself, you'll be depressed.. look at Jesus? you'll be at rest!! AMEN!

U - use you experience to help others! (related verses: 2corinthians 1:6, 2 timothy 2:10)
why is God allowing us to go through pains? it's simply because we can only understand how people feels if you've gone through what they go through.. how do you comfort without being comforted? just like Jesus, how can he understand temptation without being tempted himself?

R - rely on God's power! (related verses: colossians 1:11, romans 12:12)
God didnt want use to rely on our own strength when facing troubles.. and we all know that with the sinful nature in us, we're nothing without God.. and God wants us to rely on him during tough times, so that His power can be glorified! and you'll see how true God is! it's like when you are lost in a jungle, you dont navigate by how u recognize the trees, how your gut feelings tells you, you rely on the compass! and even if the compass points this way, you don say i wanna go that way.. you know you're wrong! it's the same for God, rely on Him and go straight back to the word of God.

E - expect God to bless you! (related verses: james 1:12, james 5:11)
God who is merciful and gracious, will not expect to let us be in the tough situation forever. take the example of job. he lost everything within a night, even his wife force him to just curse God and die. but he persevered and was rewared 2x! if we are faithful with little things, only then God will trust us with bigger things!

so friends, whatever we're going through right now, God knows.. only if you persevere, then your journey with God will be fruitful. God has promised us the crown of life if we endure! nothing is too much for us to bear, God who is faithful, will only allows temptation we can bear. Jesus also said Himself that everything will be according to our faith. Hebrews 10:32

(pst tan mentioned the full detail.. i don rmb)
there was an athlete who took part in a marathon..
he was seriously injured halfway during the race.. but he endured..
after 2 hours the other participant finished, the crowd saw him limping all the way to the finish line.. he even parade the stadium after that..
a reporter went up to him and asked, "why did you still continue knowing you wont win?"
he replied,"my country didnt send me seven thousand miles to take part in the race.. they sent me to finish the race.."

same theory for God.. He saved and redeemed us.. not to let use enter the race, but to finish it.

remember the parables of the sower?
it's not that 1/4 of the people are stony hearted, not 1/4 of them are without depth, not 1/4 them that are thorny hearted, not 1/4 of them that are good hearted..

it's just a stages of life, for examples
when you were kid, u had some friends, teachers who were christians and they told you abt angels and heaven, and you seemed to be laughing and absurd-ed?
or during teens where you heard christians music which you think was like rock and roll genre which you just happen to like and that's it?
or when you're married, and working so hard for family, people come sharing christ and you said you would've believed.. just that you are too busy with work and family?
and finally one day you yourself was at church and started to experience and feel the presence of God!
isnt all this familiar? it is for me too. it's all abt the relfect of personal life..

let us always endure hardship and reign with God!! as He has promised us!!

for the both of us, it's just like what bro robbie said.. don pursue the matter deeper.. we started this relationship secretly.. it's the sinful nature of people that thinks bad abt us for what we caused.. and we will stand up strong again.. and tell the authority that we're serious about together. we want to grow up in the fear of the Lord, be accountable to God himself, the authority and bring everything under the light! so that the devil will not have anything to accuse us anymore! i'm sure we'll be so bless by then! Amen!

i love you dear! just hang on and we'll have a breakthrough! thank God for all the rhema words that He have given the both of us =D

2008-02-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

alright.. the spirit of laziness has departed me..
and i'm here to post again.. =.=

many things happened actually.. i guess tat's y i'm so lazy to post..
lot's of ****ing things happened.. all of them are abt church stuffs..

before i start bombarding, let us pray, "Father i'm sorry that i'm here complaining about
all the stuffs.. i pray that you'll forgive me.. this is the only place i can vent all my angers.. Amen"

ok let's rocknroll..
i really don understand how the brains of the church peeps functions..
erm.. alright not all of them.. i know how mine function..
"leaders" perhaps..
cos even songs like heart of worship they can sing from "all is STRIPPED away" to " all is STRAPPED away" ironic ya?

there's so much things i disklike abt church.. it's been so long and i can continue writing for millenium..
so i'll just start with the recent two..
SATURDAY:
1) I was told to back off for ministry and told to come for prayers weekly 1st.. that was already ****ed up enuff..
2) They had this cg outing where they planned for dinner and pool after that..

i didnt wan to go to the outing as i don like the peeps and the crowd.. it's bloody damn lame to hang out with idiots.. also, as planned to go home early as well as it was js's birthday..
and initially, i also have tots to accompany dear to classique.. and i dunno how the **** the ppl can say that i didnt attend the cg outing cos i wanna go out with dear.. damn.. why would i choose sat? instead of sunday where i can do watever i like?

i was called to go down to bugis last min with js un-contactable..
God knows where she is..
and i know how anxious i am..
i'll die if mom called and i'm alone..

on my way there, martin called me.. he asked me why didnt i turn up for prayer on friday..
i told him i need to wait for my mom as she was with relative and they plan to celebrate js's birthday.. and immediately he intercepted.. "oh really? js said u left home at 4.." then in my heart i tot.. mati liao.. i was with jenny? NO WAY!!!!!! i was really at home.. and dear was feeling unwell too.. wtf is going on? y did js said something like this?(don worry, i've already forgiven you =D peace)

i then bloody chao gan臭骂him.. wtf?
did they accuse me with jenny?
damn..
he didnt call to say, "ky, u know js said u left at 4.. wat happened?"
cb.. he called to confront and is literally pushing me to a corner..
and later he give excuses and said he didnt know my reason..
c'mon, already told c**s**l that i wont be coming and y at 4..

after that ben called and said i'm not in children church ministry

follow by c**s**l.. she said i don have to come for prayers..

pastor also took part of the childish game..

hmmm.. i really wanted to go to chc with dear.. i swear i really wanna..
but bcos of God's rhema through pst meng, bro robbie and pst tan.. i ENDURE..

i'll share wat pst tan preach on the next post shortly.. and be prepared to be awed by how accurate it is when God speaks..

to be continued.....

2008-02-02T01:24:00.000+08:00

haha.. i lent dear my psp home..
she's so cute when she play..
pinch*
haha.. i love you so much =D

2008-02-01T13:16:00.000+08:00

today i woke up with a dream!
a dream of God ministering to me..
i was in church service.. and it's during worship..
the song was fall by hillsong.. and it was so annointed..
i felt the presence of the Lord and i wept and wept like a baby..
it was so touching.. God told me He understood my feelings..
He told me that the world has troubles, but in Him i may find peace, take heart, for He has overcome the world.. AMEN
the 3 people i captured in my dreams was dear, johnson and pastor meng..
dear was also being ministered by the Lord.. she was crying.. hugs
johnson came to asked me how i felt.. if all the crying released my burdens.. haha
and pastor meng smiled to me.. and pointed me a thumb up.. maybe only city harvester acknowlege me?

watever it is.. i amazed by the presence of the Lord.. how close, touching, and warmth can it be, even in dreams.. HALLELUJAH!
there's this 2 times i felt this strong presence of God.. one is from this dream.. the other was at W319.. my ex-chc cg..
the atmosphere, environment, friends, loctaion is all different.. and during worship i felt something close.. =D

have you thought y did Jesus said in Him we can find peace while church brings us so many "problems" ?

simple.. it's because Jesus is Godly while church are manly..
so far i've only seen chc that's Godly..
chc, here i come!

2008-01-31T21:55:00.000+08:00

zzz.. expected..
c**s**l called and told me that the plan was cancelled..
i was told to be commited to the weekly prayer..
wony be thinking too much abt it..
as i'm mentally prepared..

Psalm 146:2-4
2 I will praise the LORD all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live.
3 Do not put your trust in princes, in mortal men, who cannot save.
4 When their spirit departs, they return to the ground; on that very day their plans come to nothing.

yes indeed, never place hope on man as they are as sinful as us

2008-01-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

today my spirit and flesh were at war.. my mom told me that she'll like to bring to to have shooping for new year clothes, which i was really excited about.. i knew i had a visitation to be done.. i was hestitaing so hard whether to just give an excuse and go with my mom instead.. until the Lord show me Matt 6:33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.. then i told my mom with conviction that i have a visitation to do..
a step of faith perhaps? haha..
everything went well.. i was sensitive to the Spirit as i told myself i had to before entering the house.. everything was well.. i did 4 main things.
1) i greeted the family and let them know i'm visiting them as a friend and i really missed them
2) i had games with the 3 brothers and it was fun
3) i had a semi-serious chat with the brothers on topic like how they must respect and talk to each other as well as the elders.. ( i noticed that the 3 brothers are rather quarrelsome ) after that i told them about wat are the children church having this saturday and they're really excited to come
4) i prayed for them for their studies and the unity between themselves and i also prayed for jeremy's leg as he told me that it was hurting for him when he runs

home sweet home after that.. nice feeling though, i felt i've done my best for the day =D

2008-01-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

haha! today was super happy..!
i finally met up with dear..!
after so damn long long time.. =(

had a wonderful time with dear, as well as the sannin..(they came at a later time)
hmmm..
we went to hougang to replace dear's ez-link card..
how funny is that they put the top up station and the card replacement office together..
this make both who wanna replace their card and those who wanna top up their card fairly troublesome!!
but thank God the process ended within 30 mins!
hexhex..

but after all, hougang is a rather bad place to hang out..
sorry ya! for peeps for inhabit there.. =p

today post will be cut down.. cos my brain cells are oso "cut" due to the migrains..
ARGH.....

2008-01-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNSON!

geez... today was a tiring day.. had a basketball match with the guys..
fun but tiring.. haha..
had a few sip of milk from LKL.. hope it'll make me grow!
hahahaha..

damn.. i broke my slippers..
my beloved $4.50 three years slippers..
it's way beyond repair..

haha.. we slacked all the way to 8 after that..
talked abt GUI!!
we were also discussing where to celebrate john's bday..
and i think REDhouse is the best place.. =.="

today dear got a RHEMA!
The Armour of God in eph 6:10

since i'm bo liao let's talk abt the 6 armour =D
1)belt of truth - the bible clearly says in John 8:32 know the truth and it shall set us free.

2)breast plate of righteousness - in 2 sam 22:25 God promised to reward us according to our righteousness.

3)shoe of gospel of peace - Jesus said in John 16:33 that though the world have trouble, but in Him we may find peace! why not share this good news to the lost? =D

4)shield of faith - faith pleases God. it also releases the power of God! Mat 17 says we can move mountain if we have faith of mustard seed. it's no wonder why the devil always attack our faith.. without the shield, we're dead..

5)helmet of salvation - salvation is not once and for all.. we must always keep the fine linen cloth on ourselves so that we are always ready..

6)sword of the Spirit (word of God) - WOG is a very powerful weapon against the evil one.. or in fact, it's the only weapon we have as christians. therefore always keep the WOG on our finger tips

the best example is Jesus Himself in luke 4..
He was led into dessert to be tempted..
all the way from chapter 4:3-12
noticed how Jesus used the word of God against the devil(which also used the word of God in logos-tic way)
Jesus Himself didnt relied on His own strength when being tempted..
He let go.. and let God..
so friends, whenever you are facing with troubles, look to Jesus Himself..
Amen!

Hebrews 2:18
18Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.

2008-01-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

woo.. i'm back to post..
everything's settled down i guess =D

pass few days have been preparing for world war 3.. hahahaha..
i was in the wrong.. sorry dear =(

i just finished my application for the JAE and JPSAE..
thank God everything was over..
i did my part, the rest i commit unto You..
let Your Kingdom come and Your Will be done!
AMEN!
sorry dear, i wasnt able to talk much on the phone just now..
was so concentrating.. =X

had a really wonderful dinner with my family just now =D
有个那么温馨的家庭真是我的福气！
dear wasnt here today..
she gotta stay home to study =X
God i pray for abundance wisdom to fall upon JENNY!
just like how u blessed king solomon

mom said something nice today..
“跟Jenny吵架了是吗？为什么她今天没来呢？”
haha! tat means mom already treated dear as a part of us!
DAMN HAPPY!! haha..

while having dinner, i started a topic on how cruel man is..
noticed the way we eat crabs.. they're well and alive initially with 6 legs..
and crabs are usually big..
but because of the cruelty of man,
we crush every bits of their thick shells to canibalize every muscles on their body..
and after that, they're left to bits..
LOL...

i miss you badly today..
without you by my side,
my life aint complete

2008-01-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

i got back my O's today..
there was a few emotions i'm feeling right now
contended, disappointed, sad, anxious, worried, vexed..

1st of all.. Thank God i'm able to have a poly course..
although the choices are not much.. all thanks to my maths
luckily my english saved me.. if not i'm doomed..!

i tot i was done for initially.. cos even for ppl who have done relatively well, they get 25 points..
so i thought i was those kind that will score 35+..
thank God he managed to turned the tides..

i wasnt really happy that i know i made it.. just purely contented.. becos i know i could've done better.. if i put in my effort all along..
but i didnt..
however, it's not a time to regret..
learn from my mistakes and move on..
dear, that's why i need your encouragement and support =D
as much as my family's
cos you're part of my family as well..

something that really ache me is that.. not all is able to go to poly..
especially someone who's that close to me..
i really feel so sad..
there's really nothing i can do.. =(
all i can say is that.. it's not the end yet..

God will still be able to turn the bad situation into something good!
the disciples of Jesus wasnt the high flyers.. john and james were quick tempered fishermen, and even matthew, who was so called "rich" tax collector..who was hated by everyone, philip was a guy who never understood spiritual things, thomas the doubter who even said that he will only believe Jesus resurrected after he saw Him, peter was so unstable.. the rest were fearful and proud.. but in the end, the apostles turned the whole roman empire upside down.. that's wat God sees..

even for Jesus himself..
all He had were the 12 disciples in his ministry..
even 1 betrayed Him..
He was being mocked at on the cross of calvary..
but one thing He turned the world upside down was the power of His ressurection..
people didnt look at His past.. but His ressurection..
don give up.. there's always hope =D

dear.. it's going to be your turn soon.. work hard as ever!
i'm so glad you realised the importance of studying hard!
and i know and believed you can do much more better than anyone!
i'm always here to help you!
make the decision that will benefit you!
lastly, when you have problems that you cannot cope with your own strength,
DO SHARE WITH ME! but ultimately,
let go, let God..
He'll lay the path for you =D

John 16:33"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

hope this will give you encouragement!
我爱你

something ironic happened..
a soka guy called me..
i was amazed.. although i've already told them i took up Christianity as a religion, they still have wonderful follow up..
they asked abt my result..
they invited me to their musical.. and said it's not religion.. basically, i can feel their love and concern from the bottom of my heart..
i can feel they they're stong! and loving!
like a city harvester..
but it's still not a true god they're worshipping..
as a christian.. why does our follow up still be inferior to them?
think abt it.. =X

2008-01-22T23:35:00.001+08:00

AH!!! THE FLU'S TAKING MY LIFE!!

peace =D

joyous moment =D

don friend you =p

serious look.. =p

had a wonderful time with dear today =D

being with you really brighten up my life!

today was so funny.. we had a chat abt our career..

dear said she wanna be an architect, designer, airport staff, etc..

then she told me why not consider abt working in the airport.. eg. pilot.

as my english is quite fluent.. *proud* =p

then i told her being a piltot really needs a strong language..

because you when you are the aircraft captain and when u want a landing,

you tell the communication tower, "he..llo? he..llo? i wan.. to park my plane.."

haha.. she laughed till she dropped on the floor.. =D

super cute!

damn.. it's so bloody true they say $$$ make the world goes round..

or even make the world rounder and rounder.. =.=

i'm left with the last $2..

PATHETIC!

i will start saving and become a millionaire!!!
no more poverty! =D hexhex

alright.. gonna rest early..

miss you dear =D

CIAOS!

2008-01-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

just had a nice chat with dear..
finally felt better..
or in fact, i'm all well already =D
thx dear!
i love you! and i'll never leave you!
tat's my promise to you =D
to be with you till the end of time
that's my desire..

friends are important in our journey of life..
there's no doubt that there will be all sorts of friends that will pass by..
be it good or bad, some friends will be eliminated through time.. trust me..

Thank God i've got 2 wonderful brothers..
come to think of it, they're the 2 that i'm willing to die for..other then dear and my family =P
that's none other than team seo yun guan.. LOL..
i think we can forget abt being akatsuki.. sannin is enuff..
lol.. sounded so childish.. =.=

they're a great blessing to me..
although johnson is quiet, direct, sua ku, hiu lan..
but he's super funny ar.. the ink incident can make me ROFL...
he has a big heart and that's undeniable..
always remembered how he helped me vacuum in church..
and wiping the windows.. and how he don even bother abt other ppl..
LOL.. thanks man =D

lkl's the same..
he appears more sentimental..
but he's nice, caring, and have a super soft hard..
i think a jelly would even tremble to think that there's actually something softer..=.=
hahahaha..
wont forget the things u would do for me tat cos u the extra mile!
like how u would come down just for my psp games..
thanks =D

it's amazing how we guys communicate..
a single slight reaction on our face and we knew how each other felt..
and how naturally we handle things together =D

cheers ;D

2008-01-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

hexhex..

chalet was fun anyway..
it was more of a chit-chat session..
unlike those wild one..
haha.. never been to those really high chalet which i'm really looking forward to
where u can have lots of FUN and play throughout the nights with laughters, joy..
=D

hmmm.. ystd was so funny.. there was this guy that was drunk.. and we bombard him with stupid question..
his father's name
his mom's name
how long was his.... LOL
at 1st he said in a drunkard manner that it's not suppose to be revealed.. then after that he scale the length with his fingers..
ROFL..

there's another thing that made me laugh my head off..
this johnson..
forever so sua ku..
in downtown's chalet.. you have to get a stamp on your hand per entry..
for those who visit regularly, you know the stamp's rather interesting..
it stays all DAY and can only be seen by those ultra-violet lighting..

and when johnson got a stamp, he was so stupidly shocked! and he EXCLAIMED to the security guards.. "UNCLE! NO INK!!"

hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

then at night he was so seh when he's playing dai dee..
i wonder how severe his beating would be if he was in a casino..

alright.. i'm down with bad flu.. so bad that whenever i sneeze.. my head hurts..
and my voice has turned sexy..
you will tell that i'm not well immediately after hearing me.. =(

these few days i felt weird too.. rather more to shagg-ness i think..
maybe i'm just too worried abt the o lvl result..

many things happened.. and thoughts keep coming to my mind..
every little thing's gonna be alright..

i told you i'm gonna tell you smth after school.. i guess you forgot..
i forgot too.. it's nothing much..
leave the thinking to me..
i'll handle it =D

2008-01-18T18:32:00.000+08:00

Geez!! just finished the case study bro robbie gave us..
it was quite a head sore..
judging from how **** up the situation was..
but hey!
God is a sovereign God!
His name is about all troubles, diseases, sickness etc...
simply, His NAME is above all names!

i'm starting to miss those old school days filled with memories..
it's over.. it's now like those old sepia image in my mind..
never again will i have the chance to di siao teachers, cha bok from remedials, sleep in class,
keep extra long hairs the spike teachers, and when teachers come chasing after you, you hide in the toilet.. hair was cut in public, stand for whole hour for detention, jump the queue during recess, sleeping in class, talk back at teachers especially sarbene, bullying those toot toot students.. asking them to sing,
hang out with big bunch of friends like nobody business and MANY MORE!!!
i mean.. you dont get to do all these in poly.. people will think that you're nuts or simply someone who escape from the asylum.. or even worst.. ATTENTION SEEKING MORON!

argh.. i'll never want those comment to tag me..

still remembered the 1st day in sec 5.. when we were summoned into the principal's office and told to reconsider coming back as we were all borderlined passer..
DAMN!! I was so gan chiong that i literally told myself to really work hard!!!!!
who knows.................?

i barely played through that year... =.=

I SWEAR I DID REALLY TOLD MYSELF THAT I'LL CHANGE OK! ^.^

i guess it's simply how life centers itself.

there's a chinese saying 失去才懂得珍惜..
and i heard this saying：
溜走的鱼儿，总是最美的
摘不到的星星，总是最亮的

so peeps out there
cherish your school life!
i know it's hell studying......
only retards find that studying is a taste of heaven....
but it will help in securing a good job in the near future!
尤其是你，宝贝..
要加油！！！！
不会的就问我或老师！
不要一直讲话！

2008-01-18T17:51:00.000+08:00

HAHA! i'm such a fortunate sleeping log! i slept all the ways till 12.30..
until dear called me.. =D

hmmm.. i spent the whole afternoon assembling my bed!..
but the process was stopped becos i broke the support!

DAMN!!!!!!

have to get down to IKEA to change.. bloody waste time.. ZZZ~

i didnt know assembling 6 chairs can take 1 hour! =.=

today dear told me something tat almost cause myself to blow up!
tat damn bloody female PE teacher mdm LOH (=.=) reprimanded her!
in front of the school! and it's for no particular reason.. just as being prejudice!
and the action that i cannot tolerate was she PULLED dear's fringe!
i swear i'll tie her hair and hang it behind a lorry.. WAHAHAHA..
there wont be next time.. yes! no next time..
hope dear's okay =X
love ya

this week children church is killing me..
1st. i gotta do the preaching
2nd. i gotta do the bulletin
3rd. i gotta do a visitation(but postponed due to lack of time)

GOD! when i'm weak, You are STRONG!!!!
you're my FEET when i cant move on!!

woohoo.. rather long post for today.. hexhex =D

gtg prepare myself for church! teaching of John 3:16 today

Dear i miss you..
我愿意用我的生命来守护你！
你是我最珍惜的宝贝！
没有了你，我的生命就像大海少了海豚！
不能没有你！
我❤你！

2008-01-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

had a damn bad sleep last night..
went to Health Promotion Board with dear for her vaccination..

OOSH!~ heartache ar....

i told the doctor i was her ELDER BROTHER.. and they actually believed! WAHAHAHA!
after all the procedures.. it was cancelled.. cos she didnt get the papers signed..

WOOHOOO~ mom and dad bought a new bed for me.. shifting it up the stairs broke my back..
and i cant imagine abt the assembling parts..

ALRIGHT! it's time for me to hit the sacks!
early rest today

CIAOS!

2008-01-16T23:55:00.001+08:00

YEEEEHA!!! 1st time blogging.. =.=
actually.. it's 2nd time.. haha
the 1st wat tat damned bloody social studies blog.. leekengyongsocialstudies4c.blogspot.com =.=

alright.. today was really angered..
it was a long story..
but THANK GOD everything was over =D

dear, next time i must be the 1st to know wat you're going through..
don look for other solution!
i wanna be the 1st to know..
i'm ur bf after all =D